Why I'm feeling grateful

I would like to take a moment to explain why I feel extremely grateful. 

Last year was a big year for me. In fact the last 4 years have created such growth in me that I no longer recognize who I was back then. I’m grateful for that. I’m grateful for a lot of things actually. Let me explain:

4 years ago my daughter died and the year that followed was the worst year of my life. 
3 years ago I realized that strength is within us all 
2 years ago my son was born.  His unquestionable lack of  need to sleep at night, his dairy intolerance and his presence in my life caused some significant snowballs.
9 months ago my marriage ended to a man whom I thought I knew but realized I didn’t.

It’s been very hard work. 

…and I’m grateful for each and every one of those events.  In fact I’m so very grateful that it’s hard to put into words. I know how that sounds.

But you see each one of those events has helped me break free from the negative patterns that I was repeating over and over. Patterns that were so seductive and yet so destructive at the same time. 

We all have these patterns, the parts of our personalities that we think we are not able to change, but life has given me some enormous opportunities for growth and reflection. The choice was to either be swallowed by grief or create positive change. 

For the first time in my life I feel free. I have realized that control is an illusion. None of us have any control – the only thing we can do is be as present as we can, try and be of service to others and most importantly look after our minds and our bodies. 

I have come to know some incredible people throughout my recent journey whom have helped me tremendously. I wouldn’t have been able to get to where I am now if it weren’t for my family and friends new and old.  I am so thankful them.

A new friend recently recommended the film ‘Into the Wild’ for me to watch. If you haven’t seen it yet I wholly recommend you give it a watch! Warming: it might make you want to give up your day job though…! 

I am now excited about where my life is going – and what a thrill to think that I have no idea what’s around the corner and I’m really ok with that – especially as I get to share it with some truly amazing people too.  I now see that good things and bad things are all part of the richness of life and yes hard things are very hard but it’s about mindset. If you can recalibrate your mindset you can see how even the worst of the worst can be positive. Imagine.